Sunday, October 15, 2017

Get back

We have been living in Kauai for three months now. It seems longer and shorter at the same time. Adjustments have been made, situations have occurred, and we are now getting into our new "normal". That seems to be taking extra time though. It seems that once you finally get used to a schedule, routine, or what a day entails for you, then it changes and you have to adapt all over again. Oh least I'm not bored.

This past week was a busy one. I'm not really sure why but it was. Work kept me away for awhile while my husband got to spend each day with friends or doing what he wants to do. (he is off for fall break). Friday neither of us had to work and we decided to go paddle boarding. It was so much fun and I love being with him. We then got some ice cream, sat on a bench and watched it rain. Something so simple that means so much.

I think we tend to get caught up with work, school, daily household tasks, friends, etc and that's fine. That stuff does need attention. But we also need to take time to enjoy where we are at. One of the reasons we moved to Hawaii was all the activities that are available to do outdoors. If we can't enjoy those things, then we are not enjoying one of the reasons we moved to this wonderful island. We all need to remember to "get back" to the things that make us happy and enjoy where we are. Even if it's just sitting on a bench and watching the rain.

Friday, June 16, 2017


Over the past two years (since I've written on this thing), I have discovered more about myself and what I want to do career wise. I was lucky enough to receive an opportunity to work as a PTA at an outpatient clinic towards the end of 2015. This was my first job as a PTA and I was supper excited to apply my clinical skills and learn some new ones as well. As my training started I was learning the environment of the clinic, documentation skills, insurance rules and so much more. I met my co-workers and started working in collaboration with them. Everything was going great. But, as any job has, I started noticing things that I did not agree with. This clinic focused on the money side of things and not as much on patient care. That is not why I went into therapy. I want to give people care but due to this clinic's "values" that seemed not to be as big of a value and the focus was on money/reimbursement. I was conflicted on if I wanted to work at this clinic. I would come home crying so frustrated that I was not being the best therapist I could be due to this clinic not allowing me to be. Even though this was the case, I stuck with this job for a year and a half. Don't get me wrong; I loved my co-workers, the patients and I learned so much but I hated the management and the total goal of what this clinic had in mind. I would come home frustrated, exhausted and mentally drained and I did not like living that way. I kept thinking this is not how this is supposed to be. I tried changing things/policies at work to try and fix the feelings I was having. Nothing seemed to work. I would have ups and downs and got to the point where I didn't care. That is horrible to not care when I work in field whose soul purpose is to care.

While all this was going on, I had a goal. Since I visited my aunt and uncle in Hawaii, I had wanted to live there. The environment, the food, the mixture of cultures, and the energy of the island pulled me in and I wanted to stay. For so long, this has been a dream of mine and I longed for it. I'm happy to say now, it's becoming my reality. I will be moving to Hawaii next month. My husband and I have both found jobs and we are so excited. We both prayed about it, discussed it, and prayed some more and finally decided to take the plunge and go for it. Now I feel excited, anxious, stressed and have a little second guessing going on. This is something that I've wanted for a long time and now that it's finally happening, it's almost like my mind can't believe it or has to talk its way out of it. Even though all these feelings and emotions are there, I'm still very excited to see what the island holds for me. I hope that my new jobs have a different outlook than my last one. I hope I learn just as much but work in a positive environment and that I actually enjoy going to work. May new bosses seem like wonderful people and have been very helpful. This is a good sign to me and I am looking forward to this new career and living adventure.

Sunday, April 26, 2015

It's been awhile.

Life has been crazy lately and it will continue that way. Tests have been passed, clinical rounds are almost up, graduation is coming up, job hunting is a thing now and we are moving. This is what will be happening this next month. I am super excited but the transition periods are always hard to get through. I find myself excited about the outcome or what is up ahead but I don't really want to go through the actual thing. Funny how that works right?

It was my birthday this past week. Another year and I don't really feel older but I know that I am. Time seems to go faster as we get older and I'm not sure I like it.

My husband is almost finished with his first year of teaching. They say that once you get past the first year then it gets easier. I wonder how true that is? He's excited though and I am too. It will be nice to have a little break and not have to think about school all the time. He deserves it.

I'll leave you with this...

"Nothing is impossible, the word itself says "I'm possible!" -Audrey Hepburn

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Clinical II

I am in my second week of clinicals. It's a crazy feeling to know that in a few short months, I'll be applying for my first real job. Hopefully I'll be ready by then.

So far, I have observed and helped here and there for certain patients. It's kind of hard being the student because I feel like I'm in the way and I'm not capable of anything yet. But it is also kind of fun because I get to sit back and watch all the relationships between the staff and patients. It's interesting how some patients are so willing to work and please you and others have no interest. At the age some of these patients are I can understand why they have no interest but it is also very sad. I feel a good portion of them are content with their functional activity and are okay with not getting any better because "someone else can do it for them" or "I'm going to die soon anyway so it doesn't matter". I guess that is something I'll have to get used to seeing being a therapist.

It's also interesting observing the staff. I like the people I work with and you can tell they enjoy what they do. Because PT, OT and Nursing all work together, they all tend to talk amoungst themselves about patients. I find this helpful but also interesting. You find out that some patients may like nursing more or less than the therapist so therefore, their attitude can change drastically. Another trait to get used to while working. As a student I learn so much and just hope that what I learn I can apply to the real world.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Grandma K

My Grandma passed away last week.Technically she is my grandma in-law but she made me feel like one her own grandchildren. She made me feel part of the family even before I was married in and I thank her for that. She is the most caring and genuine woman and it was sad to say goodbye to her. But honestly, I am comforted that she is in a better place, is healed and can finally relax. She is with so many others that have left before her and I am sure they are making her feel at home and are welcoming her with open arms.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Another Year

Another year has flown by and it's time to start the new one. As we get older, time seems to pass by more quickly and it is something that I am trying to get used too. It seems like there is so much going on and it's almost like we are treading water to stay afloat with everything going on.

This is my last semester of school. It is an exciting, anxious and nerve raking time. You know when you have been working at something for so long and then it finally comes to an end and you wonder, is this still what I want to do? I've been having that feeling. I hope that when I'm finished with school, this is a job that I will like having. I hope I will enjoy it. I hope I will make a difference.

The end of this semester will also mark a new chapter in our lives. It will be time for me to get my first "real job" and it will be the end of my husband's first year of teaching. Landslides for both of us! This of course involves relocating for jobs and other scary/exciting adult stuff. We shall see what happens.

It seems like time goes faster as we get older. More things to do, more responsibilities to take care of, more people to see. With that said, here are a few goals I have for the new year:

1. Enjoy it
2. Take time for myself and for my husband
3. Finish strong with school
4. Get a job I enjoy
5. Spend more time with family and friends
6. Live more and spend less

Happy New Year

Tuesday, December 16, 2014


A lot has been happening this week. Not to me but to some friends of mine.

They ended a long relationship about a month ago and one of them is already in another relationship. It's interesting how someone else's life and choices effects other people around them. All of my group of friends have been trying to be supported of both of them. We try not to pick sides but it usually doesn't end up that way.  We will see one but not the other or one person distances them-self from the group because they are trying to find themselves or experience new things. That's fine and I respect that. It still doesn't make it any easier for us; or me at least. It's sad to know that the group dynamic is changing and will never be the same again. It's another adjustment to make and who knows what that will do to everyone. I know we grow and change over time but these are the people that I feel close too and want to remain friends with. I want all of us to be able to get along like we did in college. Hopefully that will happen and I know it will take time. I guess what I'm trying to say is, even though we are all moving in different directions and making our own lives, I still want us to be there for the big moments.