Adjustment

A lot has been happening this week. Not to me but to some friends of mine.

They ended a long relationship about a month ago and one of them is already in another relationship. It's interesting how someone else's life and choices effects other people around them. All of my group of friends have been trying to be supported of both of them. We try not to pick sides but it usually doesn't end up that way.  We will see one but not the other or one person distances them-self from the group because they are trying to find themselves or experience new things. That's fine and I respect that. It still doesn't make it any easier for us; or me at least. It's sad to know that the group dynamic is changing and will never be the same again. It's another adjustment to make and who knows what that will do to everyone. I know we grow and change over time but these are the people that I feel close too and want to remain friends with. I want all of us to be able to get along like we did in college. Hopefully that will happen and I know it will take time. I guess what I'm trying to say is, even though we are all moving in different directions and making our own lives, I still want us to be there for the big moments.

Ready?

Have you ever wondered if what you have been prepping for is something that you really want? I'm entering the last semester of my schooling and it is an exciting and anxious time. I've found myself thinking about how I have worked so hard for this but then I find myself in doubt whether this is something that I really want to do. I thought I did four years ago, but now I am second guessing it. I think it's interesting how we want something so bad and will do anything to get it but once we have it, we start to question whether it was something really worth having. I guess that must be normal. It doesn't sound normal though. It sounds like a bi-polar individual who can't make up their mind.

The problem with people who only want what they can't have is that once they have what they want, they don't want it anymore. 
-Scrubs (J.D.)

I think it must be a challenge though. The combination of excitement and anxiousness wanting makes us nervous about it actually happening. We've been working so hard for what has seemed to be so long and now that it's here, it's scary. You are taking a risk and trusting that what you have prepped for for so long will actually work out. This is something that you will be doing with a big portion of your life. I guess it's about taking chances and learning from those chances.


I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it. 
-scrubs (J.D)